Shadow-lined

I am a Light who holds Dark within.
Not as Dark as once I was,
but still Shadow-lined.

And what do they see in me,
these Seekers of Light?

Surely they must know that
I am bruised
and I am scared
and I am selfish
and that I hold the Darkness close most nights?

I don't know why they flock
like magpies
to the brilliancy of my Smile.
I don't even know where the brilliancy comes from.

All I know is that I am so very
very
Shadow-lined...
and yet I also seem to be a Light.