Still Alive

I'm sorry I've been remiss in checking in. I'm still alive, but just barely hanging on. The pain has been constant, intense, unremitting, and I've ended back up in the ER a few times despite my careful adherence to the prescribed usage of my "pain relievers".

I'm hot on the trail of getting in with a new pain specialist, but it's hard. Every day is a struggle against desperation, bleakness, and overwhelming pain. Not having a break from the high levels of pain is wearing me down and making me very, very sick. Something's gotta break, and soon.

So, just hanging in there.. trying to survive. Hopefully I'll have some good news to report soon. Until then, I just don't have the energy for anything outside of myself, and barely even that.

3 thoughts:

  • Catherine | July 5, 2014 at 7:22 AM

    Hi Darling,

    I'm so sorry you are in so much pain. I can't imagine how hard it must be.

    I wish I could come over with cookies, and tea (or whatever sounds good), and maybe my dog Amelia so you could have a good snuggle (she is the best snuggler around!). We could talk for a long time, watch cheesy tv shows, and do our nails.

    I'm here and I wish there was more I could do. I think of you and hope for you all the time.

    xx, C

  • Catherine | July 5, 2014 at 7:27 AM

    p.s. I hope this doesn't sound strange, but would you mind emailing me your address? I'd love to send you a goodie in the mail! My email is

    xoxo, C

  • Friko | July 8, 2014 at 2:47 PM

    Poor girl. What a nightmare.
    This endless struggle must be wearing you out completely.

    I hope somebody, somewhere, will find a remedy for you that brings you relief.

    Sincere best wishes.

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